i am so pissed off with myself! Lost in my world and i am trying to find a way out of it. i do see that light out but its not shinning bright enough. i wan to throw that weight away but your constant present plus my on off thoughts are killing me. they are eating away my heart. and it is hurting badly. like really bad. so bad that i really wan to release those emotions. i wan to show it out lord and tell you all to just get out of my life. FUCKEW all! gosh i still dont feel better. for the last time i just wan to get out of the past. i hate the two of you all. so please get out. i wan to get out of your life. i dont wan to get involve in it anymore. please let me died off in your lives plus u all get out of mine too! i just dont dare to be harsh to you all so forgive my behaviour here cos i cannot find other ways to release these energy towards you all.
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